불신과 의심의 끝은

주제

• 의심과 불신은 어떤 악영향을 주는가
• 최소한 사랑을 지키는 방법은 무엇인가

영작

Life is too short to do anything other than love. But unfortunately, since we’re normal human being, we continue making mistakes to doubt and distrust our loved ones. I wanted to deny myself loving someone too much because I had thought that there was always a risk of being abandoned by the person who I loved so much. So if I couldn’t even escape from that emotion, it would also destroy me, at least I had believed the theory.

But unfortunately, since we’re ordinary human beings, we keep making mistakes—doubting and distrusting. normal 은 너무 정상/비정상 느낌. ordinary 가 평범한, 인간적인이라는 자연스러운 뉘앙스 make mistakes to X 는 부자연스러움.

I tried to stop myself from loving someone too deeply because I believed there was always a risk of being abandoned by the person I cared about the most. deny myself 는 뉘앙스가 안 맞고 문법적으로 어색함 stop myself from ~ing 가 스스로 막다라는 정확한 의미. deeply 가 더 자연스러움 cared about the most 가 감성적으로 더 부드러움 abandoned 는 강한 단어라 부드럽게 조정

If I couldn’t escape th at fear, it would eventually break me. break me 는 감정적 붕괴를 은유적으로 표현하는 자연스러운 표현 even escape from 은 어색함

But at some points, I have to admit the fact that I should believe the loved one even if they might want to leave me later. The most important part of it is just letting myself feel happy, joyful, sad, and even desparate. Once I accepted that I can’t prevent a bad situation in future, I ended up stopping behaving couragely in front of the loved ones, like “Even if you left me, I’ll be okay with it. No worries.” Actually, my real thought was totally different. Whenever I pretended to be fine to all the bad things, I also prayed that I wouldn’t experience those. If I do the opposite way, it’ll be easier to handle that negative emotions and thoughts since I have time to be ready for them.

But at some point, I had to accept that I should trust the person I love, even if they might leave me one day. at some point → 관용적으로 단수 사용 loved one 은 부자연스러움

What matters most is allowing myself to feel happiness, joy, sadness, and even desparation. 감정 명사형 나열이 더 자연스러움.

Once I admitted that I can’t prevent every painful outcome, I stopped pretending to be brave in front of the person I loved, saying things like “Even if you leave me, I’ll be fine. Don’t worry” bad situation in future 는 너무 직역체. every painful outcome 이 더 자연스러움. couragely 는 존재하지 않는 부사. left 는 과거형 → 일반적 진술엔 현재형. Be fine 이 더 자연스러움

In reality, I felt nothing like that.

Whenever I acted like everything was okay, I silently hoped those fears would never come true. to all the bad things → 너무 한국어 직역체 prayed 는 종교적 / 큰 일 느낌. feared + come true 조합이 일반적임.

If I do the opposite, it becomes easier to handle those negative emotions and thoughts because I give myself time to prepare for them. opposite 뒤에는 way 필요 없음. that → those, be → becomes 가 더 일반적 be ready 보다 prepare 가 글에서 더 자연스러움

It’s so difficult especially for me to be honest to people. I can’t still trust people easily, stop pointing out even the small thing which the loved one makes, and just believe myself that I can love someone without distrust. I don’t really know why it’s so hard to me, but it is what it is.

It’s especially difficult for me to be honest with people. honest with someone 이 관용 표현

I still can’t trust people easily, stop pointing out even the smallest mistakes the person I love makes, and simply believe that I can love someone without fear or doubt. small thing → 모르겠는 대상이므로 mistakes 가 문맥에 맞음. 관계대명사 which 생략 believe myself 는 나 자신을 믿는다로 의미가 달라짐. distrust 보다 fear / doubt 조합이 자연스러움.

I don’t really know why it’s so hard for me, but it is what it is. hard for me 가 맞음

Some books say to love yourself before love someone. Yes, it’s correct. Then can I not be loved before I know a way of being kind to myself? As I just want to say “no”, I keep trying to fail loving myself, being kind to the world, and being generous to myself in a way I do it to the ones who I want to be close to.

Some books say you should love yourself before loving someone else.

Yes, that makes sense. correct 는 너무 딱딱함.

But does that mean I can’t be loved until I learn how to be kind to myself? 영어 의문문 구조 수정

I want to say “no” to that, even though I often fail at loving myself, being generous to the world, or treating myself kindly, the way I do for the people I want to be close to. trying to fail → 반대되는 의미임. 직역체 문장 수정

Let’s begin to be nice to myself.

So, let me begin by being kind to myself.

알아보자

• admin → 사실이나 잘못을 인정하다. 감정적으로 조금 어렵게 인정하는 느낌. 마지못해 인정하는 느낌.
  • I admit I was wrong / She admitted the truth. He finally admitted his mistakes.
• accept → 받아들이다 / 수용하다. 사실을 내 현실로 받아들이는 느낌. 감정적 수용 혹은 체념에 가까움.
  • I accept your decision.
  • It’s hard to accept the truth.
  • She accepted what happened.
• be / become / get
  • be: ~이다, ~한 상태이다. 단순 상태 설명이고 변화의 의미가 없음.
    • I’m tired / She is happy.
  • become: ~하게 되다 / ~로 변하다. 점진적으로 과정이 있는 변화. 보다 공식적인 단어임
    • She became happy / He became a doctor.
  • get: 하게 되어버리다 / ~해지다
    • I got tired: 갑자기 피곤해졌어
    • She got angry: 갑자기 화가 났어
    • It gets cold at night → 밤에 추워진다.
    • become 보다 캐주얼하고 빠른 변화에 자주 사용됨. 감정 변화 / 상태 변화에 주로 사용
• should / have to / need to / be supposed to
  • should : 강요 아님. 하는 게 나아, 그게 더 나아, 권유하는 느낌. 권장 / 조언 / 하는 게 좋아
    • You should sleep early
    • You should be careful
  • have to: 해야만 한다. 안 하면 안 된다. 외부적 규칙 / 상황 때문에 반드시 해야 하는 것. 강제적 의무
    • I have to go to work 출근해야 해 (회사 규칙)
    • You have to follow the law
  • need to: 필요성에 의한 해야 한다 (규칙이 아닌 논리적 필요) should 보다 강함
    • I need to rest → 쉬어야 해 (내 몸이 필요함)
    • You need to finish this today. → 오늘은 이걸 끝낼 필요가 있어.
  • be supposed to: 원래 ~하기로 되어 있다 / ~해야 하는 상황이다. 규칙/약속/기대/관례 때문에 그렇게 하는 게 맞는 상황일 때. 누군가가 그렇게 해야 한다고 기대하는 의무.
    • I’m supposed to wear a uniform at work
    • We’re supposed to meet at 3
    • You’re supposed to say thank you.
    • This button is supposed to open the door. 이 버튼은 원래 문을 여는 버튼이야.
• normal / ordinary / general
  • normal: 정상적인 / 기준에 맞는 / 이상하지 않은. 규범/기준/기대치에 부합하는 상태. 문제 없음. 정상 범위 느낌이 강함. 의학 / 심리 / 기능 맥락에서 자연스러움
    • This is normal / it’s normal to feel nervous / A normal temperature
  • ordinary: 특별하지 않은, 아주 평범한, 흔한
    • an ordinary person
    • an ordinary day
    • I’m just an ordinary human being
  • general: 전체적인/포괄적인/대체적인. 사람 혹은 사물의 평범함이 아닌 범주 전체, 공통적 특징, 일반적 사실을 말할 때
    • in general
    • general rules
    • the general opinion
• fine / good / okay
  • fine: 괜찮아, 문제 없어, 불만 없어. 중립적이고 공손하고 자연스러움. 난 신경 안 써, 괜찮아요 느낌
  • good: 좋다/만족스럽다/오히려 긍정적이다. 좋은 쪽에 가까움.
  • okay: 괜찮아, 문제 없어.
• continue / keep
  • continue: 잠깐 끊겼거나, 어떤 단계가 넘어가도 다음 단계로 이어지는 ‘계속’. 문장 스타일이 좀 더 formal 함. 동작보다는 행위 전체의 지속성에 초점이 있음.
    • Continue reading → (중단되었든 말든) 계속 읽으세요
    • We’ll continue the discussion tomorrow. → 논의를 내일 이어서 계속하겠습니다.
    • She continued his work after lunch.
  • keep: 끊김 없이 계속해서 반복하거나 유지함. 지속/반복/습관
    • Keep going → 계속 가!
    • She keeps asking me questions
    • Keep smiling
• begin / start
  • begin: 격식 있는 표현. ‘과정의 시작’을 강조함. 어떤 절차, 과정, 이야기의 출발점이 강조되며, 갑작스러운 시작보다는 시작점의 선언 느낌.
    • The meeting will begin at 3.
    • The story begins with a young girl.
    • She began to cry (과정의 시작을 서술할 때)
  • start: 실제 동작/행동의 움직임 강조. 갑자기/바로/즉각적인 시작을 표현하는 느낌. 기계, 액티비티, 행동의 시작에 특히 자연스러움
    • Let’s start!
    • Start the engine
    • The class starts at 3
  • The class begins at 9 → 공지/글/설명에서 자연스러움. 공식 일정
  • The class starts at 9 → 회화에서도 자연스럽고 캐주얼함. 그냥 9시에 시작한다는 뜻